WHAT HAPPENED WHEN I QUIT PARTYING

This is the Instagram post that started it all. I wrote this on December 4th, 2016 after a year of massive growth and massive struggle. You can hear tones of my About Me page blurb here. If you want to know more about me, how I changed my life, this is a good place to start.

ORIGINAL POST 12/04/16

1 year ago today I woke up hungover & next to a man who I loved but who didn't love me & even though the exact same scenario had played out countless times in my life, that was the day that I decided to make the changes I needed to to get to where I am today. I called up Mark Groves & we started to work & once we started, I couldn't stop. I ditched the man, the binge drinking, the partying & nearly every other thing that was helping me play small. This was no easy feat, trust, because these were people & things that I'd been holding on to for nearly half my life. 

So, I stayed home almost every weekend for 6 months. I said goodbye to friends who I cared about because our values no longer aligned. I started having honest conversations with loved ones that made us both uncomfortable. I turned down romantic relationships that would have been so easy to settle into because now I must have more than easy or good enough. 

There have been tears, fights, loneliness, relapses & moments of massive self doubt but here is what's made it worth - Looking in the mirror to find a face full of light & positivity. Connecting with countless new people on topics that mean the world to me. Connecting with my friends & family on new levels every damn day & most importantly, looking back at a year almost over & seeing a transformation so massive, it's hard for me to believe it sometimes. 

It's time to take bigger steps with greater risk associated & I am ready. Wanna join me? I'd love it if you did. 

Courtney Miller